I went down and then up two lbs. (Fasting makes me drop a lot of weight and lose it again eventually.)
I am kind of using weekends and cleansing time. I eat less, I eat a lot of fresh fruits and veggies and I drink a lot of water. I'm aiming for about 1200 cals.
My goal is 199 by the end of December.
I just want to get as far away from 200 as possible.
Aiming for 130, but going slow. 199 is the number I have in my sights right now.
I'm trying to pay less attention to the scale and more attention to how I feel and how my body looks different.
I'm seeing small changes. I'm less bloated, my stomach has shrunk a bit, my face is less fat around my chin area.
One of the things I can't handle personally is my face being fat. I've never had a fat face. Even when I was 180 my face always looked so thin because I hold my weight primarily in my thighs and but area. Pear shaped. So when I started getting a double chin I realized that basically my body was running out of places to put all my extra fat.
I just feel like...I'm not happy at this weight. This isn't for anyone else. This is for me. So I can look in the mirror and be happy.
And right now I only see a chubby girl, who mightve been pretty if she hadn't gotten fat...
